Poems & Stories

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[glow=red,2,300]July 2009 (PANSOL, LAGUNA) (we're already broke up)

Mark (swy) asks for an aide to his financial problem. He borrowed money from me and exchanged his PSP for the meantime. He even insisted that I should go with them at Pansol with his friends.

Later at night, We we're a bit tipsy and we talked for so many things. (ABOUT US). Twas a very serious conversation.

Mark: Kung tayo, tayo talaga di ba? Much better kung makagraduate ka muna and then ayusin natin. Ang magiging problema lang natin is kung mabubuntis ka or may mabuntis ako.

Kristine: Okay, Siguro nga, mas maganda muna magfocus tayo sa priorities natin. Kung tayo, tayo nga.


Months had passed. I knew he has a new girlfriend. I wasn't affected at all. Knowing him as someone who just wanted a companion.

March 2010, he texted me.

Mark: Pano, kung nalaman mo may anak na ako.
Kristine: Eh di. Congrats! haha!
Mark: Joke lang.!

But deep inside, I'm so irritated.

One day, he text me again and asked for Rose' number ( our common friend). I asked why? band he answered BASTA. So, I asked Rose If I can give her number. I sent it right away. No reply at all. Not even a Thank You.

May 6, 2010.

I opened my FB account. And tried to check his Account. I saw on his wall.

"Update!!!!!! Our wedding day will be on the 29th of May 2010 at Ermita Church Manila, Reception will be at Max's Ermita besides philam life..."


( I paused for so long.. I cannot breathe. As if someone stabbed my heart and crushed it again and again.)

So, I texted Rose. She told me that maybe it's a joke. I'll ask him na lang.

Later that day. Rose confirmed to me that it's TRUE. I wasn't crying. NGUMAWA ako.
Nagkatotoo na yung sinabi nya. We'll separate ways, his GF got pregnant.

I don't have any grudges. All I need is a SORRY. Because I never entertained MEN for the sake of that vow. I was inspired to push harder just because of it. And it hurts a lot. It's not tolerable for just one day to cry and move on. This is the hardest part. To Accept. Sana, kinausap man lang niya ako. I dunno what action to take.
But still a part of HIM remains here in my heart. FOREVER.

I'll move on. Just like what I did before. I'll be happy for you. Coz I know you'll be happy too.


This would be the last time that I'll say...





I LOVE YOU GOODBYE.



Sana hindi mo pinili ang date na 29 sa kasal mo. It's our monthsary. Sana hindi Malate Church dahil dun tayo unang nagsimba. Sana hinintay mo ako. Mahirap ba ako hintayin?.

P.S.

Salamat sa mga kaibigan na nag comfort sakin.[/glow]

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It's not YOU

Today I realized loving someone unexpectedly is hard...
especially when there are factors beyond your control that impeding that love to grow..

When i said I hate you..
You said you love me more..

I even tried to slap you..
but you hugged me instead..

I kept my hands..
but you insisted to touch it..

when I was so down..
you are my clown..

you are so boastful at first..
but its the one i liked the most..

I almost humiliated you..
but you kept your head straight, because you know in the end, we'll be okay..

You gave everything..
I had nothing..

I loved you too..
but you know who comes in my mind first..

and it's not you..

I am sorry..

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I LOVE YOU THIS MUCH

Enough to do anything for you, give my life, my love, my heart, and my soul to you and for you.

Enough to willingly give all my time, efforts, thoughts. talents, trust, and prayers for you.

Enough to want to protect you, care for you, guide you, hold you, comfort you, listen to you, and cry to you and be with you.

Enough to be completely comfortable with you, act silly around you, never have to hide anything from you, and be myself with you.

Enough to share all my sentiments, dreams, goals, fears, hopes, and worries.. my entire life with you..

I LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO FIGHT FOR YOU, compromise for you, and sacrifice myself for you if be needed.. Enough to miss you incredibly when we're apart, no matter what length of time it's for and regardless of the distance..


Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it throught he worst of times, to have faith in our strength as a couple, and never to give up on us..

Enough to spend the rest of my life with you, be there for you when you need or want me, and NEVER, ever want to leave you or live without you..

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[shadow=red,left,300]LOVE WITH ALL YOUR HEART


Don't be afraid
To love someone
totally and completely
Love is the most fulfilling
and beautiful feeling in the world

Don't be afraid that you will get hurt
or that the other person
won't love you

There is a risk in
everything you do
and the rewards
are never so great
as what love can bring

So let yourself get involved
completely and honestly
and enjoy the possibility
that what happens
might be the only real
source of happiness..
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Because of you
I know true love is real and forever

from as far back as I can remember,
I dreamed of finding my true love:
someone who'd love me always and whom I would love with all my heart and soul forever..


I didn't want someone just to pass the time with..
I wanted someone to be "inlove" with, to join in life with, and to experience the kind of joy and happiness that would see us through everything..


I wanted someone to share my dreams,
to understand my hopes and fears,
to go with me to the mountaintops and down in the valleys,
to learn from the trials and enjoy thr triumphs.

I wanted a constant companion to inspire me and be inspired by me..,
to plan together and grow and travel through time together,
to become one, yet keep on our own identities too..


I knew finding this person would be like finding a needle in a haystack,
but if I succeeded,
I'd be the luckiest person alive..

Now time has passed and faith has worked its womders.. and i have learned that dreams do come true..
True love is for real and forever..
I know because I'm still in love with you..

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I met a man over the phone..

He sat beside me when I was alone

I cried a lot but it didn't last..

he was the one who made me laugh..

I had to choose or compromise?

but at the back of my mind..

What if it's just all lies?

So I didn't held for so long..

I let him go,coz life goes on..

You cannot portray it.just like a song..

Confused or puzzled?

I love to stare at him and then dawdled..

Whenever i see his beautiful eyes..

I just freeze and then suddenly melts like an ice..

Even the tip of his hair,i would love to care..

and hold his hands to have a remembrance..

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Love is the greatest feeling
And it will not go away
Love is what I feel for you,
Every moment of the day

I believe that God above
Created you for me to love
I'm sure he chose you from the rest
Because he knew I'd love you best

You're someone special on whom I depend
You're a faithful lover, parent and friend
Here's how I feel when you're by my side
Secure and content, overflowing with pride.

My visions and dreams all involve you
We always talk over the things we do
With a kiss each morning and your embrace
I'm given the courage the world to face

Your encouragement and words of praise
Are shown in dear affectionate ways
These are some reasons I love you so much
So thank you my dear for your tender touch.

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Marjie,

I am not surprise or wander why Dennis leave you.

Why?

What reason you can think about but you're very fat body. I thought before that Dennis only use me to his toy but sooner and later I'm realize that he really can't beared or stomached to be with you anymore because at first, Dennis say he could not stand you're habit of making pakialam all his walks [lakad] and always calling to their house what he go home or this or that and then say he get ashame to met iether in school or in his family and then asking you to exercise you're ver very, very fat body but you hate it thoughth your the most preetiest girls he knows about what do you think you are "Beautiful Girl" of Jose Marie Chan even you are beautiful face to your think)you do not have the right to called me whatsoever or else different name one time or the other for the real purposed to insults my personality because I'm never call you names iether in the front of Dennis or in th backs of Dennis, but if you start already to calling me different name, I don't have any other choice but to call you any other different name to like you are a PIG, FAT, OBESSED, OVERWIGHT, AND UGLY SHAPE girl. Shame to you're body that is to a BUDING. You can't not blame Dennis for exchanging you to me because I am more sexier than you when you look to us in the mirror. I'm repeat again that you are like Ike Lozada when she is a girl.

FROM: THE SEXIEST GIRL OF D.M.

P.S. You say that I'm the badbreath but who is Dennis want to kissed.Me or you?You or me?And the final is me.




-exerpt from the book "BAKIT BALIGTAD MAGBASA NG LIBRO ANG MGA PILIPINO? by Bob Ong (idol ko to!)